Mother died today 19 years ago

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My mother died today, it was early in the morning when I got the phone call, and she was gone.

Gone Gone Gone.

Been sitting here cannot get her off my mind, I guess I have to be Amanda and be strong, I cannot help myself but the truth remains she’s gone,



Sorry Nsync decided to call me while doing this, and yes JC Chasez in the music video looks upset. Well, it is upsetting when a mother leaves. I miss Nsync’s calls, fighting with Joe Fatone in Telepathy is epic, but that was before I found Thorn, and Joe Fatone agrees that is what I needed to find and for him to support, which he does support Thorn.

When my children were attacked, 2016, Joe tried with his wisdom to calm me down, it didn’t work I was not happy about my children being attacked and at the time in 2016 I did not get calm.

I loved going in Orlando, Florida to the Florida Mall to eat Branch though, Branch is from Trolls, Braspberry Italian Ice, that was at Joe Fatone little hot dog stand Fat One.

Anyway, I miss the guys, I’m one of them but not. And the calls are less frequent since I came back to Alaska. Yup calls less frequent, and I’m okay with that, so are they.

Mother died after my meeting with Nsync in 1999, that was on JC Chasez’s birthday, but everybody in the world knows this so old Nsync News nothing here, JC Chasez on his birthday proposed to me, and I went nope, I’m with Justin. Which was truth, I was with Justin, but because of MEDIA happy people Nsync KNEW about I got left behind, and I’m doing okay with that.

My mom died that OCTOBER, and Nsync was long gone by then, not knowing that was happening to me, but knowing. Remember I time-travel, so others do too.

I’m lighting a candle again today in Catholic Tradition. I formerly a Roman Catholic, heck my excommunication is secret, but I might not be excommunicated no paperwork, that is another story and mystery of the Catholic Church.

I miss mom, and yes the lies that are in this TIME TRAVELING, TELEPATHY, MY EXCOMMUNICATION (Mystery of the Catholic Church) and I am going to state when I lie, society loves that, and then I am interesting and not full of shit.

1.8 billion in 1920 Truth.



Cycle of Violence within Politics

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Mrs. Bill Clinton gave me this idea and I wanted this so badly, I got this idea from thinking about her and watching her speak in the past. I got this idea from writing about them as a married couple. That the cycle of violence is on her and her husband, all they wanted to do was discuss laws and figure out what works in this country.

The crucifixion was about political speech. What do you think Jesus Christ was doing? He was walking around giving his political opinion without running for office. And he never had the vote for a Roman senator for his region of life. Nor did Jesus Christ have the ability to shape the laws of the land without giving his opinion openly. Which he did give his opinions to the point of a conviction with the death penalty.

The luxury about the Clinton’s is that they have the right to run for office, they have the right to their political opinion without the fear of violence against their bodies. That law is in  place to protect them, but the cycle of violent political speech continues even in this modern day.

Hillary Clinton could be crucified just for one bad political decision, that we put her in office to make. Her political future could die based on that. She risked her future and her families future to have that ability in the first place to make that bad decision. Prison can be a fate of an American politician, and it seems rare, right now, but it is the truth.

It was not extreme speech that places people in the cycle of violence in politics today, it is simply talking about preferences now from the preference of trees in a parking lot, to speaking of war to defend the country to protect resources of people and property, that political speech can lead to rocks in windows or threats to families. That is the cycle of violence.

The give give that was suggested is where political speech has to happen, but how when people want to force their own will and not hearing out how their will HURTS MANY!!!

Mrs. Clinton does not want many to be hurt, but she does want a give and take, you do this this reward happens, you do that the correctional facility is for you penalty. Budgets are the same way, you do this the money is there for you, you do that the correctional facility is there as a penalty. Give give is that simple, it takes away the threats of violence.

Mrs. Clinton is the best example for this blog post, because she has gone through so much politically, she is indeed like Jesus Christ. I will go over her record later, I am betting some already know what I can praise her for, just like Jesus Christ.





The build up is right there, the honeymoon since 1920 is over, 1920 was when men gave the constitutional human right to vote to women… when is the next explosion. I can predict men will explode and a fury of backlash abuse is about to begin. I and other women have mentioned our goals, and might be perceived as abusive.

Men do not want to be perceived as stopping progress, or seen as the abuser. They are not abusing these gentle giants of men. I am seeing this. I really am, and I am hearing from the media outlets what men are saying… how to stop this and gain the goals as partners?

The next explosion is the next woman president but do women have to be abusive to get that goal reached? I do not think we do, because we have worked together the sexes for millennium.

How does the vote happen for a woman president without the explosion, and I am not the national global parent here for the men, I am not putting men in time out for correction and I am especially not spanking all of the men (I only will spank one grown up man), I am just a woman with the same goals as other women, knowing I speak my goals, get listened too, and then hear “We have made progress woman.” In a gentle but annoyed tone.

The glass ceiling is right there, and it is covered in slim of abusing men. I cannot stand by and let that happen, I want the glass cleaned up, not dark black slim on a dirty carpet, I want that glass to be see thru and the oval office right there, taken because of capabilities not taken and broken into because I slapped men in the face calling them ugly idiots. Doesn’t it seem idiotic that you are not voting for the woman because she has abused you? Doesn’t it seem idiotic to not support the abuser? Who the fuck supports a fucking abuser anyway? I don’t, and I do not expect men to support women that abuse them into stuff, including sexual stuff, the men never wanted to do in the first place.

So how do I stop the abuse on men and get them to see capabilities. Even if the person capable is a woman. Right now I am seeing that men have been abused into doing stuff for women, instead of convinced they are learned, capable, gentle, lovers, and… fill in the blank if you know what men really are…

More to come and explore… wise women and beyond… no more abuse. No more abuse. No more abusing the men.


Verbal sexual abuse endured


Men endure this daily verbal sexual abuse and this is something on my mind this morning. Verbal sexual abuse that I cannot remove from society.

I do not want to attack the successful business owner, I need jobs. Like everybody else, and I am a bit of a female wage slave myself. I am not a successful business owner, that happened to me, others might not have the same non-success rate. But I am like the 70 year old Babyboomer who worked for Wal-Mart all his life and might get a good pension. And a woman married that man too, like a woman would marry a business owner CEO.

You see the verbal sexual abuse just written down? Don’t you. NO you would not see the emasculation of the man who worked for Wal-mart all his life.

The verbal sexual violence is more on the male Wal-mart employee, than it is on the CEO. But the CEO uses the verbal sexual abuse to build himself up trying to overcome something not able to be over come because this is our society’s language and expectations of men. Yes I do not have an example of a CEO being verbally sexually abused but I will find one… it does exist.

Men are victims of this chronic abuse.

How to say a boys dream come true is to be a life long Wal-mart employee? Okay some men might have that grand dream, and maybe the woman’s dream come true is to marry employee of the month at Wal-mart? Right, with our media going you marry the person who is the art director of GQ. But even the Art Director at GQ magazines masculinity is attacked by assuming his sexual orientation as homo-sexual when he might not be. And that is an abuse we do on men all the time.

People do not assume I am a lesbian all the time, heck I have to come out once in a while and say, “Dad, I’m a lesbian.” Nobody really assumes a woman’s sexuality but they are delighted when they find a woman swings both ways. Maybe that is just media, right.

Men can cut a man down based on assumed ideas all the time on other men. I’ve seen this in the media, and maybe the media has to stop that. Okay, how do you stop emasculating men, when stopping emasculates man? I am running into that thought all the time.

I’m thinking more articles with examples of this chronic abuse will happen on Wise Women and Beyond, so far no solutions but the first examples are written. This will lead to men working more with women on trying for a more peaceful society. NOT a society of fluffy bunny fighters though… a society of strong minded men and women.