I fell in love with a polyamorous woman. That does not mean I am a lesbian but it does. I know that sentence means I want to talk about communication about sex, and I know there is no secret word from my readers to tell me stop. Remember I am into BDSM and safe words because I am not into sexual abuses.
It was not hard telling her I could not come into her family, where she had two men with her at the time. I lived a few states away. I just wasn’t ready. And I was living far from her at the time. She lives closer to me now, I haven’t seen her in decades, but that is closed. I maybe polyamorous too.
I am not going to seek her out, and hers was a deep loving writing friendship, her love for me was in her writing and I saw that. She was there during my divorce when I needed her the most, and when I found out about polyamorous relationships it was from her.
Yes, she was my first polyamorous love. But I am the one that cannot commit. Just me, I am not into commitments. I am into my self-denial and celibacy, which is my Masochism. I was not practicing my masochism when I told the wonderful polyamorist lady that I could not join her closed family. I was being honest and I had hoped communicated well.
Masochism is when a person takes pleasure in self denial. I am not certain about humiliation, it is added into masochisms definition, I do not think I am a person that gets pleasure from being humiliated. But who knows maybe that is a truth I am not ready to face yet.
Example of a masochist, a comedian, Jimmy Fallon.
I want to make certain everybody knows a polyamory is NOT AN OPEN RELATIONSHIP WHERE EVERYBODY JOINS. It is a closed private relationship like monogamy.
Is it sexually abusive writing about sexual preferences? I don’t think so. But since this is about how people communicate. Masochism isn’t self abuse, people might think it is, but most are very cool with who I am in public. Privately if they have issues, I hope they keep their opinions to themselves, but if they do not, well my opinions are very public.
Being in a polyamory could feed voyeurisms. I am big into voyeurism, I go to the movies when I can and my collection of movies is extensive. I understand people into voyeurism can be exploited by the movie industry and it does this to us all the time. Providing interesting things to watch, so the industry is something I as a person into voyeurism loves.
I am not into sexual abuses of any kind, that is my BDSM and I want to go into that now. Explaining polyamory is a closed relationship is VERY important to me, what is also important to me is to speak on how to stop verbal abuses, again I am not one to speak right, I have to admit to being human and we all have speech issues when it comes to forming language when some terrible mean emotions come about.
Bondage Dominance Sadomasochism is not about being into abusing.
IF YOU ARE INTO ABUSING PEOPLE YOU ARE FETISH AND NOT BDSM.
BDSM is into CONSENT. What is consent? It is permission to do what you want to a persons body by that person.
IF YOU ARE INTO NONCONSENT, there is a district attorney waiting to meet you and a judge to sentence you to a correctional facility.
ALL BDSM PEOPLE HATE NONCONSENT PEOPLE, consent is the sexual kink in BDSM. AND it is re-enforced in the teaching of BDSM. The safe word in BDSM is to stop any abuse that might be happening or perceived. And that word, as long as it is USED and respected, makes certain consent is right there at all times.
I am going to talk about my voyeurism because Ashton Kutcher did mention what Thorn does do. AND people using children to try to exploit me and use my sexual kink need life time prison sentences.
I am BDSM, and as I wrote consent is my kink, tell me when a child is OLD ENOUGH TO CONSENT!!!!! They never will be.
I’ll watch Aston Kutcher on screen for Spread. That is voyeurism. I will not watch what Mr. Kutcher mentioned in his testimony, when he was talking about what he founded to catch and free children from sexual abuse: THORN. I refuse as a voyeur to even seek that viewing out.
Voyeurism is seeking out for sexual pleasure something to watch. I have found females very silent about their voyeurism needs, I am guessing it is because of Judeo-Christian family values that women and women’s magazines do not write about Females into voyeurism. I can get away with mine because of the industry, the movie industry. In the past women just were in orgy’s right for their voyeurism?
Anyway, I need to sum this up. People now know more about where I am coming from. I am completely into consensual sex and consensual non-abusive communication. I have not told how I got this enlightenment, just who I am… keep reading, because more women and men will communicate better before I die.
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