Tag: Lesbian

Mother died today 19 years ago

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My mother died today, it was early in the morning when I got the phone call, and she was gone.

Gone Gone Gone.

Been sitting here cannot get her off my mind, I guess I have to be Amanda and be strong, I cannot help myself but the truth remains she’s gone,

Gone

Gone.

Sorry Nsync decided to call me while doing this, and yes JC Chasez in the music video looks upset. Well, it is upsetting when a mother leaves. I miss Nsync’s calls, fighting with Joe Fatone in Telepathy is epic, but that was before I found Thorn, and Joe Fatone agrees that is what I needed to find and for him to support, which he does support Thorn.

When my children were attacked, 2016, Joe tried with his wisdom to calm me down, it didn’t work I was not happy about my children being attacked and at the time in 2016 I did not get calm.

I loved going in Orlando, Florida to the Florida Mall to eat Branch though, Branch is from Trolls, Braspberry Italian Ice, that was at Joe Fatone little hot dog stand Fat One.

Anyway, I miss the guys, I’m one of them but not. And the calls are less frequent since I came back to Alaska. Yup calls less frequent, and I’m okay with that, so are they.

Mother died after my meeting with Nsync in 1999, that was on JC Chasez’s birthday, but everybody in the world knows this so old Nsync News nothing here, JC Chasez on his birthday proposed to me, and I went nope, I’m with Justin. Which was truth, I was with Justin, but because of MEDIA happy people Nsync KNEW about I got left behind, and I’m doing okay with that.

My mom died that OCTOBER, and Nsync was long gone by then, not knowing that was happening to me, but knowing. Remember I time-travel, so others do too.

I’m lighting a candle again today in Catholic Tradition. I formerly a Roman Catholic, heck my excommunication is secret, but I might not be excommunicated no paperwork, that is another story and mystery of the Catholic Church.

I miss mom, and yes the lies that are in this TIME TRAVELING, TELEPATHY, MY EXCOMMUNICATION (Mystery of the Catholic Church) and I am going to state when I lie, society loves that, and then I am interesting and not full of shit.

1.8 billion in 1920 Truth.

 

 

Cycle of Violence within Politics

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Mrs. Bill Clinton gave me this idea and I wanted this so badly, I got this idea from thinking about her and watching her speak in the past. I got this idea from writing about them as a married couple. That the cycle of violence is on her and her husband, all they wanted to do was discuss laws and figure out what works in this country.

The crucifixion was about political speech. What do you think Jesus Christ was doing? He was walking around giving his political opinion without running for office. And he never had the vote for a Roman senator for his region of life. Nor did Jesus Christ have the ability to shape the laws of the land without giving his opinion openly. Which he did give his opinions to the point of a conviction with the death penalty.

The luxury about the Clinton’s is that they have the right to run for office, they have the right to their political opinion without the fear of violence against their bodies. That law is in  place to protect them, but the cycle of violent political speech continues even in this modern day.

Hillary Clinton could be crucified just for one bad political decision, that we put her in office to make. Her political future could die based on that. She risked her future and her families future to have that ability in the first place to make that bad decision. Prison can be a fate of an American politician, and it seems rare, right now, but it is the truth.

It was not extreme speech that places people in the cycle of violence in politics today, it is simply talking about preferences now from the preference of trees in a parking lot, to speaking of war to defend the country to protect resources of people and property, that political speech can lead to rocks in windows or threats to families. That is the cycle of violence.

The give give that was suggested is where political speech has to happen, but how when people want to force their own will and not hearing out how their will HURTS MANY!!!

Mrs. Clinton does not want many to be hurt, but she does want a give and take, you do this this reward happens, you do that the correctional facility is for you penalty. Budgets are the same way, you do this the money is there for you, you do that the correctional facility is there as a penalty. Give give is that simple, it takes away the threats of violence.

Mrs. Clinton is the best example for this blog post, because she has gone through so much politically, she is indeed like Jesus Christ. I will go over her record later, I am betting some already know what I can praise her for, just like Jesus Christ.

 

 

Natural Consequences

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Consequences is something computer language people know better than average people. Yea, I know computer people are outside in the rain, like I was… oh you have to leave that office to work.

All joking aside if I do not write the code right, the program does not work, natural consequence to computer developers. 1920 men gave women the vote, the natural consequence right of a long campaign by many women. That is one way to look at it. The OTHER is what I see abuse of men.

Abuse of MEN. Abuse of Men. Abuse of Men.

The men were in charge 1919, 1920 they gave women the vote. Men were born 2 billion extra after that. 1940 2 billion, 1960 3.04 billion today 7.7 billion, the population explosion happened after World War II. 1 billion deaths are about to happen…then another billion to die, a full mature person being able to take a loan out is 18 years… or older, so that is concerning that the population drop is about to happen, for the UNSAVED!

Sorry my craziness… There is a well of souls that birth people from and god is making new souls, if you believe this, that is you. I’m Venus-Aphrodite, so rebirth is me. Oops no credibility now for me… so no credibility hits – I can say the rebirth rate will happen but it isn’t good for the current economy with 2 billion deaths coming up.

That means no with credibility I can state, people will be reborn, and it takes time for them to grow.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Men need to be protective

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This is about how men need to feel protective.

Child Molesters go to prison

There is someone that fired me for the media, first a manager in Florida, and now a manager in Alaska, while my children this entire time live in Seattle, Washington. I do not want the media, but I do a hobby called writing and these sick women think I am wrong while many other people want CHILD MOLESTERS IN PRISON like I do. Why these female managers think I and BILLIONS OF PEOPLE ARE WRONG I HAVE NO CLUE… I am glad to be the same as many people who believe child molesters belong in prison.

Well here it is, in 2016 my oldest daughter was in school, May 5 2016, I got a text message, “Our daughter is in the hospital she was attacked at school by the teacher.” I got later that day, “Our daughter is okay.”

I went nuts. And yes I am so crazy I am helping Thorn now, a tool to help stop child sexual abusers founded by Ashton Kutcher.

July 2016, I do not remember the date, and I know look up the texts, I still have that, it is my second daughter, “Our daughter is in the hospital, she took off her shoes at the Boys and Girls club and a caregiver employee attacked her for that.” Later I got, “Our daughter is okay, she has been released from the hospital. Yes she defended herself”

I got fired from Walt Disney Corporation months later, December 6 2016, for saying outloud, “Child Molesters go to prison.” The manager smiled at me with a sick smile as if I was crazy for wanting a child molester in prison. I was like do not sue for your job back, you would work for that sick woman who thinks you are crazy for wanting people who harm children in prison.

Fast forward to 2018, yes I am having some issues, I know the issues of talking to myself, and it is because of sexual assault I did endured, I know get help right? I know it was not an issue before 2016… get it. So August 25 or August 26 2018, I know look up your past pay stub, I don’t want to right now, I got fired for stating, “Child molesters go to prison.” The managers a female and male both asked me, “Did your children get attacked?” I stated, “Yes.” With nothing to hide and they terminated me, stated what I said outloud was inappropriate in front of customers that child molesters belong in prison.

Okay, I am not seeking my job back, nor do I want to sue those sickos. I want to get away from them, and I know of other problems I have that would get MEDIA… I am not giving child molesters media. I am not going to give them the time of day, they belong in prison to rot.

Today I got some justice, saying “Child Molesters go to prison.” Does not harm a company, the US GOVERNMENT SAYS THAT. So I hope to get a job that agrees with the US GOVERNMENT AND ME, Child molesters go to prison. That being said, people should know there are managers that disagree, they do not want you to want child molesters in prison, and I got fired for wanting that.

Baby boomers happened post 1920

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The swing is the pendulum of politics and women are on it. The pendulum is between reactionary politics and radical politics.

I said this, and written this, men threw the vote at women, and then after World War II, women had voting, women had jobs they let go of, what came next for the men… BABIES. WHAT???

We got the vote during World War I and I have got to look up the exact dates of World War I, I was wrong we got the vote after World War I, it took two years from the date.

Babies are nice, the population exploded to the world we live in today, and both men/women decided on the amount of new people that made the population. I am not a baby boomer, and will never understand their ideas. Ear whispering campaign of Gloria Steinem, the burning of bras, to the sexual revolution, lets face it every generation discovers sex. So be mean to the baby boomers?

“We made progress woman.”

That is the warning men are not into what I want to accomplish currently.

And how do I get through to the men that this isn’t over with just handing women the civil human right to vote.

Is the result of the baby boomer men, not the women. So the baby boom is the result of the end of World War II. But is it the result of women getting the vote in 1920.

1920 is a men’s anniversary. MEN HAVE AN ANNIVERSARY!!! And it isn’t his wedding anniversary. This woman is starting to remind him it is coming up again. Like other wives have in the past. I am not married to all these men in the USA!!! Nope. ONE MAN OR WOMAN FOR ME PLEASE IN A MARRIAGE, and if it is a polyamory none of your business.

 

I have to Listen even to Mr. Clinton

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Maybe women’s rights forgot to listen to Mr. Clinton, and I did too. Yes, listen to a man that might have been sexually abused into sex stuff he might not have wanted to do, he does have the lovely articulate Mrs. Hillary Clinton after all.

We are not listening to a potential sexual abuse victim who was president of the USA. And I know this might get me in trouble for even speaking on it, it is a taboo topic, that even  men are silenced about.

Yes repeat Mr. Bill Clinton is a potential victim of sexual violence against his body, which is taboo to speak about. And because of that people seem to silence people like me, and the victim himself on women’s rights!

“It’s just sex,” was even said by myself.

What if it was a power situation that Mr. Bill Clinton did not have the words or ability to push the woman away? Yes, I am writing about Monica Lewinsky. And again due to the taboo of the situation, I am having my own issues, would I go down on the president for the media story of it? Yes I am seeing the power situation. There was semen on that dress, or alleged semen.

I say this is wrong. And I have gone to classes to learn about the cycle of violence and all kinds of abuses. Innocent until proven guilty creates these politics of fear, and not being able to let Bill Clinton, former president of the USA, speak on women’s rights issues. The silent abused man comes to mind once again.

I can just hear the explosion of men screaming, and these men are really into sexually assaulting women, it is her fault once again. I am thinking President Clinton is a special case. He’s a man in power, with a young woman wanting power, media and control. I am in sooooo much trouble, guilty much Amanda? Right. Because this slimy abuse is covering Monica Lewinsky and the Republican’s and I am a self admitted Republican at the time, very partisan in my politics, not the swing voter I am today, and Democrat.

Plus you betrayer of women, women have enough problems, see THE ACCUSED with Jodi Foster. All that tiny woman did was dress and get drunk. You judge the clothing on the character Jodi Foster is playing, I cannot any longer. I am betraying my own sex, and males who love that gang rape in the ACCUSED would claim they are innocent it is all the woman’s fault once again.

I am going to betray my own sex, and side with the men. Sometimes men are the same as women. Mr. Bill Clinton was at HIS HOME WE ELECTED HIM TO BE AT. Ms. Lewinsky could LEAVE, Mr. Clinton could not leave, that leaves him in a date rape situation, that I myself… yes I was date raped in 1993. By the way, my situation was the man had the drivers license and drove me to his home I did not have a drivers license at the time nor money to leave… Monica Lewinsky was an intern at work, meaning she knew her transportation options. I didn’t because I was taken to a foreign area.

So there I just betrayed women stating a woman’s rights leader who is a man, Mr. Bill Clinton was in a situation where the woman had the power over him, not him power over her. Rape is about power and control. I am the same as Bill Clinton, and not Monica Lewinsky, she had taken advantage of a man in his own home, and he could not leave.

I am going to listen to Bill Clinton more and see what he says. I crossed the line today, point of no return, and I hope the political parties give me some credibility back here. Men have been abused verbally sexually, and I just proved my case, a district attorney would have his win today, I’m the expert here. I never thought I was.

 

We have MADE PROGRESS WOMAN!!!!!

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The build up is right there, the honeymoon since 1920 is over, 1920 was when men gave the constitutional human right to vote to women… when is the next explosion. I can predict men will explode and a fury of backlash abuse is about to begin. I and other women have mentioned our goals, and might be perceived as abusive.

Men do not want to be perceived as stopping progress, or seen as the abuser. They are not abusing these gentle giants of men. I am seeing this. I really am, and I am hearing from the media outlets what men are saying… how to stop this and gain the goals as partners?

The next explosion is the next woman president but do women have to be abusive to get that goal reached? I do not think we do, because we have worked together the sexes for millennium.

How does the vote happen for a woman president without the explosion, and I am not the national global parent here for the men, I am not putting men in time out for correction and I am especially not spanking all of the men (I only will spank one grown up man), I am just a woman with the same goals as other women, knowing I speak my goals, get listened too, and then hear “We have made progress woman.” In a gentle but annoyed tone.

The glass ceiling is right there, and it is covered in slim of abusing men. I cannot stand by and let that happen, I want the glass cleaned up, not dark black slim on a dirty carpet, I want that glass to be see thru and the oval office right there, taken because of capabilities not taken and broken into because I slapped men in the face calling them ugly idiots. Doesn’t it seem idiotic that you are not voting for the woman because she has abused you? Doesn’t it seem idiotic to not support the abuser? Who the fuck supports a fucking abuser anyway? I don’t, and I do not expect men to support women that abuse them into stuff, including sexual stuff, the men never wanted to do in the first place.

So how do I stop the abuse on men and get them to see capabilities. Even if the person capable is a woman. Right now I am seeing that men have been abused into doing stuff for women, instead of convinced they are learned, capable, gentle, lovers, and… fill in the blank if you know what men really are…

More to come and explore… wise women and beyond… no more abuse. No more abuse. No more abusing the men.

 

Playing It Cool: PIC

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I am so wrong, I am so wrong, I am so wrong.

Yup I’m all wrong.

I am a Woman.

And I am so wrong.

Verbal sexual violence on men doesn’t exist, and per another voice in my noisy brain write about visual sexual violence. Yea I really know about men being visually sexually abused. I am so wrong, I have no clue about visual sexual violence.

A beer belly man watches while a woman is reading a hot man cover on a romance novel. Okay they did change the covers eventually to the boring no fucking hot man on the cover, some of the current covers. I have no clue about this, I am totally bullshitting, I didn’t want to write about this abuse of men with beer belles in the first place or the abuse on skinny men, like Topher Grace.

That was visual sexual abuse of the romance novel industry right? And yes they did change the covers… did I repeat myself? Yes I did, told you I have no clue.

I want voters, and men vote. And the abuse on men has happened to the point of me pointing it out, a nobody with industry issues, those in the industry know my issues already, so I am safe but not safe.

I named this article from a Chris Evans movie, called Playing It Cool, why because it illustrates a man not knowing what falling in love really is, it isn’t exactly a romantic movie, and he’s hot. No I a mean Chris Evans is romance novel cover hot man, did I just abuse my male readers? And I am a self admitted romance novel reader in a previous article. Who else is in it, a man from That 70s Show, how did I get that wish, anyway… Topher Grace. BTW SAME PERSON rings in the head for Topher Grace…

I think the movie is an abuse on men because men know what falling in love is, and what sexual reproduction is, but it, the movie, needs to be made and so far I like the writing of the movie. The writing drew me in after Chris Evans hot body drew me in, did I just abuse Chris Evans?

So visual sexual violence on men is body image abuses, these abuses happen to women too. And Topher Grace is not hot to me, but to other women he is, his skinny body coveted by women who are with Beer Belly fat men happened to him on Thats 70’s show, and the abuses visually on the fat man happens with models at H & M. Did I just abuse Topher Grace by admitting I find Chris Evans more attractive to me… this is truth that happens to men all the time.

Does this affect his vote at the ballot box? I think it does, and that might mean a man judges appearance of the man’s wife or the appearance of woman that is on the ballot, like women look at physical but eventually go for personality. I think that is the truth as well.

I wish to write the truths about visual sexual violence on men and verbal sexual abuses that men endure since birth to find a way to stop this chronic thing that happens, then maybe women and men can lead this country USA and the world as equals. Here’s hoping.

 

 

Fear based Politicians

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Innocent until proven guilty creates the fear based politician, not the confident the state takes care of everything politician of the guilty until proven innocent countries.

I support the USA Republic, and I support the 19th amendment granting the right to vote for women in 1920. My understanding is that I am looking at what creates our politicians and we have some of the best in the world, but we have the best because of fear, not because of a lazy mentality that the state takes care of everything for me.

The countries of Guilty until proven innocent are not bad countries, the rude American tourist is born due to our political system, not the relax the police will take that guilty person, then oops you were innocent? Ours, in the USA, is your innocent even if you were caught red handed and seen by multiple witness that tell the truth (a witness can lie).

The sad part is with this system, and it can happen in the USA, if you say, “Child molesters go to prison.” You can be fired for inappropriate conversation. And you go? What the fuck? I got fired for wanting child molesters/sex traffickers in prison, isn’t that where they belong? Child molesters/sex traffickers do not belong free to harm more children. I was shocked when this happened to me, now twice, and I was like well I’m not working for that manager ever again, creep.

I didn’t want to write about 2016, but this is what happened, my daughter was at school May 5th, Seattle Washington, I get a text, “Our daughter is in the children’s hospital for evaluation.” I went WTF! The text was later, “Our daughter is okay, she was chased under a cafeteria table by a teacher. There was a small wound on her arm from the teacher.” And no charges was brought on the teacher for assault by the Police department of Seattle Washington, I was working for Walt Disney Corporation at the time and decided to retire from political writing. I was living in Orlando Florida.

I went nuts. How could a teacher physically assault a student without charges being brought, and the children’s hospital just did the evaluation? Innocent until proven guilty, and the teacher did confess to chasing the student under the cafeteria table. My child, daughter, was 9 years old.

A couple of months later, July 2016, I got another text, “Our other daughter is in the hospital for evaluation.” A few hours later, “She is out, she took her shoes off in the grass at the Boys and Girls club and was attacked by an adult caregiver. She defended herself from the attacker. The hospital has released her.” No charges brought against my daughters attacker again. Innocent until proven guilty, and this time it was because my daughter removed a garment (shoes) outside to run in the grass. She was 8 years old. This is 2016, I was living in Orlando Florida, my daughter Seattle Washington.

I know my daughters were attacked by abusive adults, I don’t know how abusive, but when a woman or female child is taken into the hospital for evaluations, it isn’t just for her mental state.

I did just get fired recently for saying publically and explaining 2016, I bet it was misunderstood, for stating, “Child Molesters belong in prison.” Carrs Northern Lights Anchorage Alaska. (it is creepy working for managers that do not like safe children, and I am fired for explaining I want my children’s attackers in prison) It is inappropriate to want people who harm children mentally and sexually in prison according to a few managers I have run into. The location is in Anchorage Alaska. I am looking for a new job to support my children again.

I was recently saved, and my anniversary of that is Sept 22, 2011, my baptism Nov 18, 2012, I am very new at some stuff. I am happy about being a saved Christian, that saving of me lead to a very abusive divorce, and I remain faithful. My divorce, is why I mention this is that I know my girls and one tiny son who just turned 9 years old are at risk. They are in the Seattle School System while I have traveled around the country finding work. I no longer work for Walt Disney due to saying “Child molesters go to prison.” I am sorry this drove me a bit bonkers, my two girls victims of people in school and daycare of assaults.

So I support Thorn 100%, having three at risk children, I want the law enforcement to have tools to stop what happened at the school and Boys and Girls club. The congress people should  have shown up, this is important to parents, so important I have gotten fired over this issue.